I stretched your heart until the blood spilled over. I did it to fit him inside of you. I cared more for him to have a home of you than I did about breaking you open. And you did. Your lungs were drowning in blood. I saw you gasping for breath and did nothing. The blood seeped through you everywhere. Everywhere. And I took your bloodied fingers and wrote of him still. I wonder if he ever read that, if he ever cared about your fingers bleeding him words. But I never did; so why should he?
You made a nest of your frail body and flailing limbs. Sometimes I catch you clutching at the wounds I gave you. You’re trying to love yourself more than you love him, in hopes of having yourself back. But you fail.
Your body is now a crime scene. And when they wheel you away to cut you open, to study you, I know what they’ll find. More words inside of you than there are stars in the galaxy. And all your stars would have his name written on them still. They will collect those and put them in little plastic bags marked “evidence”.
Would they be surprised when those stars begin to revolve around him? Will they put him in handcuffs and demand he give you your words back?
You will stop them.
I stretched your heart until he fit there perfectly, until you no longer could.
This is my apology to you, dear me. I’m sorry.
I give you this word back though it was but one of the many exit wounds on you.